FL Panther , When you are raised in the religion of Jehovah's Witnesses most of the time it is a very sheltered way of growing up . Do yourself a favor and begin reading ,and learning all you can about life . Prepare yourself for adult hood ,for being on your own .Read self help kind of books on how to be successful in life .Get advice from respected teachers or other adults (maybe someone you work with ) in your life . Educate yourself !!
You are a young adult looking to have your own life and making your own decisions .Thinking independently is frowned upon in the Organization ,why do you think that is ? They use to preach all the time not to listen to our own hearts because of the scripture that says "the heart is treacherous who can know it " ,but as a grown adult I can tell you that advice was WRONG ! Living a life not true to oneself is no life at all . Listen to your conscience ,follow what your gut or heart 'tells' you . Because if you repress those leanings it turns to anxiety and depression . Life is very short ,it should be lived to the fullest doing what makes you the most happy ,and brings joy to others . Now is YOUR time to find out what that means to you .
Please don't waste so much time worrying about what the Elders will or won't do .If you are working and are outof school make a plan to move out on your own .Get a roommate if that helps with the bills . There were good things you learned as a Witness (you said) so take the good with you as you grow . So many young ones have felt so repressed that they leave and get into things that really do cause them heartache ,but that does not have to be you .
It is not wrong to want to grow up away from your family and to stand on your own . Best Wishes to you !